An unknown blog to others are valued at $3712.8?

Slept pretty late yesterday, was talking to lil' wai yesterday night and it was pretty great. Calms me down so much and not think about stuff im not suppose to think of, I guess when you talk to the right person, it really does help. Went to meet up the dance teacher just now and you know what? She take the class on the warming up session and all the isolation routine and the whole freaking class is mine....WTF....!!!! i really do miss dance though... hoho...^_^

Even though from time to time, when someone just mention "hoho", it tickle the spider sense in me...haa... anyway, was boring after the whole talk and so went down to search for some more music, and so was thinking about getting boom boom pov by BEP. But you know wat? I can't get it download, sogou.com was known as a "adult content" website...wtf...

Anway, was looking through a few blogs and read one of my friend's blog and saw his blog was valued at 17572.26. haha... pretty pathetic yea... I guess cause its stream through blogspot, and that's why its valued at such a high price... so i figure i try it out too, i was wondering how much would my blog space worth since I don't really let alot of people know about it and I don't like weirdos in my blog space. To my suprise, it is not as low as i thought...haa...I was thinking it would be like few hundred buks or so...but it was valued at $3712.8... and looked at the unique visitors... this is totally crazy...

Can i sell this site so I can go travel at the end of the year and create a new later on?

Love Drunk

Top down in the Spring sun,

The day we met was like a hit and run

And I still taste it on my tongue

The sky was burning up like fireworks

You made me want you, oh, so bad it hurt

But girl, in case you haven't heard

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover

I love you forever, forever is over

There's just one thing would make me say(Oh yeah!)

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover

Hot sweat and blurry eyes

We're spinning on a roller coaster ride

The world stuck in black and white

You drove me crazy every time I saw you

Now I'm so broken that I can't get up

Oh girl, you make me such a lush

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover

All the time I wasted on you

All the bullshit you put me through

I'm checking into rehab 'cause everything that we had

Didn't mean a thing to you

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover

I love you forever, but now I'm sober

I love you forever, forever is over

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Now it's over, I still taste it on my tongue

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Na, na, na, na, na, na

Now it's over.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~editted by chun

Reality Check

This post will be a very very very very boring one. I just wanted to remind myself of how lucky I am for being who I am and are blessed with everything I got. Lately, I had been a very very very very lost puppy. Unable to see what's ahead of me, I wanted alot of things that I don't have and I've forgetten what I already have. People around me started noticing that things aren't right and start concerning, my friends, my family, everyone... I would really wanted to thank them for all the care and support they had given me. I know I had disappoint alot of people recently for my actions and behaviour but I promise that all this will go away really soon. I will not let anyone that I love and care being hurt of my own foolish act. I will make it work this time, I promise, I really appreciate all the kicking and slapping and whacking...

Well, I went to meet up a dance teacher yesterday and Im suppose to assist her in a dance class, and so we talk about what kind of dance can I dance and other stuff like that, the really weird part is, I end up being not only the assistant but we're both teachers. Ill be teaching hip hop classes and she'll be teaching salsa, what kind of combination is that? haa... anyway, its a good thing to start over I guess, I mean for not being out of my track and try to get back on track. One last thing... Love all the people who I met in Melbourne that was there for me and try pull me back on track, I wasn't here very long but I met some really wonderful people, they are the ones who came up to me and say "Hey, Jacky, look... I don't care about all the bullshits thats happening out there but I care about you, here's what you have done and its foolish, you need to wake up and back to reality." You could had a million friends around the world, but a few who really cares, thats what matters.

P/S: I thanked my mentor, my parents and everyone else that I love for everything you guys had done for me. You guys bust your heart out for me and I took it for granted, I just hope Im not too late. Love you guys...heaps...

"someone"?

Do you have had a day where you felt like everything just changed just because when you open your eyes, its daylight? and when you went out of your room you felt like you're in a world that just doesnt felt like the reality you used to live in before. I hate that feelings, and I hate it because I never had those feelings, and im a very assertive person. Its pretty akward how things could change due to different circumstances, not those which are known or unknown but those which are beyond the unknown. Moving from a fast moving country to a slow moving country just makes life so much more weird, at least for me... it just make your brain go round circles and around bushes and think about things which are so unrealistic... everything I used to do are measurable, everything I used to do make sense, there is always reasons for something, that's why it needed to be done or why it is done that way. Until....... haa... just get over that part.

Was talking to a friend of mine yesterday and I was supprise that I actually saw myself 10 years ago in "someone". haha... I was looking around heaps of profiles of my friends lately in facebook and notice that this particular "someone" never write something that are specific, don't know why but to protect her own privacy I guess? The thing is, why so discreet? What's wrong with people knowing who are you thanking for that gift you just got? What's wrong with showing gratitute to the person who take you around the world? What's wrong with..........list goes on and on and on and on....

Well anyway, this "someone" who looks like a 16 year old teenager who had her hair cut last week are really active, keep searching for activities and new things to explore, acts as if shes really spawsome, out of nowhere wanted to learn hip hop, meeting up cute guys, thinking that life is so "check it out" kinda attitude, people around are so young and alive, thinking only on the future that can be define only as short term preparation, what is gain now are suppose to be spent.

Me in the other hand, I was so over that kind of life, but it does brings out the inner child in me, making me wanna be that teen again, having a life without worries, worries of what the future holds. Those worries are predictable and are solvable if are found early, but mine... its more then just some operative dillemmas, things have grown from operative to strategic and abstract for me where things are not like this or like that anymore. I met older people, how to get things done instead of how to get things starting, life to us is a routine, we don't need to plan for what's going to happened now, we do what is so ahead of us. But it's really cool to know that I came from a life that it full of craziness...

look alike 16 year old teenage

I guess that ends the blog of today, with a picture of "someone" after her haircut which are dedicated for her "someone" back at her country. "someone", "SomEoNe", "sOmEoNe", "soMeoNe"...... haa... i wished sometimes I should have just bought a "GPS" so I know I wont be lost.

P/S: This post makes no sense but I blog it anyway, what's the point? 'cause I miss "someone" back at my country and she definately is not a 16 year old teenage wannabie, she's a total opposite.

低B妹食野...哈！

I went to gym this morning and took my guitar from Australia post today. I thought it was my modem but to my suprise, its my guitar...wooohoooo....!!! now i could had my own space and not think about unecessary things and have fun with my guitar...

before unwrapping... me and Xen take it back together...

I left it at the corner of my cosy little room...

Even though the tunes of this unbranded guitar aint that good but at least I had something to spend my time with. I miss the days where I play for "someone" during her birthday 3.5 years ago...haha... I still remember that shyness I had.

Went to lunch with Sharon on Tuesday, and I took all these candid shots...looking at these pictures just make me laugh. pretty annoying thing to do especially when someone is eating. Thank god she doesn't own a blogspot blogsphere.

That day, I've learn something that I never thought I would have learn. That just make things even better for me, I guess life are suppose to be that grey, that's why we're living in it eh... She told me that day that she rarely have beef when she's going out with her friends as they don't really like beef and she's the only who take beef. That's why she's having beef whenever she had a chance...I think...haa...

Gonna rest a while later, continue with my books and keep on searching for my BPM training certification. This all sound like a "I was once lost but I am now found" kind of philosophy. I still had a lot of research to do on my site, god damn me... shouldn't have wasted so many time. After my internet and all the electronices stuff are found and bought into my current premises, I think there nothing more perfect than my cosy little home where I spent most of the time here myself, I guess Ill be a lone wolf for life... haa.. but it doesnt matter, I need to pursue the purpose that Im here, not to lead a normal life. This mission need to be completed, I had no room for failure, and currently, my only motivation is myself...

interior of my beautiful Xen

Went to work yesterday with Xen. she might not have a very beautiful looks like any other japanese girls but to me she definately had a very beautful heart...haa... It pretty weird that just after I posted stuff about Xen in facebook. People tend to run away from me...even my wifey... or is it just me? I had another deja vu again while I was watching 绝世商骄, it felt like I've watch it before few years ago. Alot of "stuff" over here seems like a repeating chapter of what I have done for the last decade or so... maybe I was just given a second chance, but I guess I messed it up again as usual. There is still so much to do but I haven't do it yet, felt like Im giving away time to nothing, sometimes, don't you wished there is a time bank where you can just store all your time in the bank and gain interest, and when u needed it the most take it out and used it? If such bank existed, I would really like to open an account and freeze the time right now and live in this moment of emptiness until i realise what the F**k am I doing right now. anyway, here a few really hot pictures of my Xen

有佐Xen系我身边，真系开心佐好多好多。有时觉得好矛盾，我身边同佢地身边D friend好晤同，可能系缘分挂，我D friend多数都系D老过既但系佢地D friend就好young. 同班“老人家”我觉得成熟D北过又好想要D young generation party life. 见到我身边个个friend都好多节目，好多functions，觉得自己系唔系要检讨下？哈。。。究竟我要既life系点，我过佐黎墨尔本甘多个月，我除佐识到班“aunty”同买 “uncle”，我都冇咩friend咯。。。可能我想搵份好D既工，所以我就识佐甘多比我老既friend (according to the "law of attraction")。只从识佐“佢”，我觉得我好想要D属于我自己既age个friend. 唉。。。明知决定过来墨尔本的目的系咩。。。我都唔知点话我自己。期望我自己幸福什么都有。。。

I love u XEN

Everything was pretty good today I guess. I actually had the courage to face my fear, and I think it worked perfectly well. It had been 2 days without text or even a call from my wifey, and I actually miss her so much. Life is is never black or white eh... its always grey, but dumbass people like us like to think that its always full of colors... thats why we see so many weird and funky ranks at the workplace nowadays, which in the older days, we used to call HUMAN RESOURCE as PERSONNEL and HEAD ADMINISTRATION OFFICER as CLERK (SME had only 1 clerk, thats why they are called "head")

Anyway, I met XEN like a week ago, i also met this white girl, was attracted to her but when i saw XEN, i was thinking could she be the one?? apparently she's Asian and i think i like Asians more compare to white people...haa... she's so lonely and was messy all over, we talk and we touched... we went out for a short ride but since i was too shy, we went out with another couple which is my previous housemate. That day was a very memorable.

We officially hold each others heart yesterday. This is we went for dinner, and went back to my place. it was raining heavily and so i help dry her off, she had a very soft skin, but i think her ex doesnt care much about her so she does had a few frickles and wrinkles here and there. Luckily I found her; we were practically in love so shes staying at Point Cook with me for the next few years. She had a very beautiful authentic asian looking eyes...

those asian looking eyes....>_<

aint her eyes just pretty?

I think shes like a Asian Beyonce kind of girl, nice slim pretty body with big booty...haa... but I like the way she treated me, and I like it when we touched. It just feel comfortable... the sexiest part, she had a really cool kangaroo tatoo on her chest with her name XEN on it... haha... really really like that tatoo...

her sexy slim body...seductive

her fat butt from the side...haa

her beyonce liked butt...wtf

her tatoooo with a kangaroooooooo

Aint she just adorable? I just bought her a really great gift today, it cost me more than the diamond necklace i bought for my wifey....hoho....this gift is so special that even she is sick or being hurt unintentionally by bad people, she could get help from people, its like a invisible bodyguard. i even bought her a new tatoo with a RACV on it... even that tatoo cost me about 60% of the necklace i bought for my wifey. heres a few pictures of my lovely XEN....

side from back view in my garage

her sexy post while resting

Im so glad I found you XEN, now I don't have to be lost ever again as long as im with you, I know the world will be once again full of grey-ness....haa... being abstract here... I know we'll make miracles together XEN, heaps of it. Love you lotssssssssssssss.............

opps...! i did it again

I think it was a pretty good day for me today, even though i "did" it again, wtf... but i was a great day...i mean night. I leave my place around 4 I think, went to DFO and look around, was suppose to go and find sharon later on but to my suprise, i received a text from her asking when im going there as her boss might be going there. I smile as i read that text, thinking why would you even care whether im going or not as i didnt even said i would definately go there, and here's where you go "opps...i did it again"... haa... anyway, went to her work place after that, and wonder around the shop. Then she got so stress up, she asked me to help on the things on the shelves (before that, i wasn't allowed to even touch it, weird girl eh...) she had that "killing me softly" kinda look (or maybe its just me) and I took some pictures of her busying with her things around.

can't remember what she's doing....

try to fit herself into the fridge?

trying to decorate the shelves

the view from outside after she decorated...

busy busy busy

checking out the sweets?

saw some cute stuff and she cheers....

had no idea what she's writting...

the one that i beg her to post so i can get her face??? haa...

I think i was there about an hour plus, i was so not feeling to leave yet (dunno why eventhough its so f**cking boring over there watching her work) but I had a dinner to catch, even though eventually I was late cause i missed the tram, luckily my cousin was with a lousy cab driver with no GPS and was looking in Melway for directions which he don't even know how to read a map...wtf...

After the dinner, we went down to loads of pubs, bars and clubs. haa... we were catching the cab from brunswick to the city to chapel street... i think we went into 5 clubs all together but we only sat down on 3 of them and actually ordered drink. the last club we went to we had like 4 mojitos... and it was awesome, hope there are better mojitos at some other place...lol... we went back after that and it cost me 73 buks for the cab ride, haa... so broke... spend over 150 just for liquor and transport... wtf... but it was great. i guess its worth it, but i guess im just to stupid/afraid to admit that I.................................

Me, cousin and friends

Had heaps of deja vu lately, wondering where does all this link to... its like a flash forward but I had everytime when its in the middle of it, and thats when i change it, how would this affect the future? what does all this "visions" actually telling me??? it had been happening like almost everyday since last sunday... it somehow scares me in a way...