Friday, April 18, 2014
Okay, Im not trying to say that im in trance or anything. Basically, there's so much in my head i dont know where to begin, or even to understand what is going to be and not to be. My questions became a burden, the process of seeking the answers became hidden. Maybe I just got too much on my back?
In a way, Im juggling among my personal life, my business and my life long path. Im not saying I do not have a plan nor im saying that I just trying to do things which are bigger than what I can handle. I just trying to say that, every actions, every decisions, every step I made have consequences which will somehow took 1 of those for granted or sacrifice of those. Ignorance is bliss? Don't think thats working now...
Ever felt that you been pressure by peers, your love ones or even by yourself? What you do, how you sit, when you exercise, why can't you do better? Its the kind of "emotional test" that you have to go through everyday after work. Work in this case, a job thats buys you the meal to keep you going. Sometimes I just wished I could be myself after all these BS
Every wonder why you knew you have a brilliant plan but it never work out? My case was different, I have a vision, a vision of how things in an organisation should be. By creating HOPE within each and everyone in the team. But what if all these "visions" have barriers? Not those barriers that stop you from achieving in but the barriers that you know you cant get through if the... cash flow isnt coming in. From where I come from, vision is 1 thing, nobody cares bout the higher purpose, we just wanna move on and look forward. If any of us survive, thats good enough. Dreams and Hope dont really exisit in a comfort zone.
Life Long Path
I wanna quit, quit being a survivor, quit being able to care bout everyone else around me. But thanks to the awesome creation of the soul and heart, I cant stop to see how rotten and corrupted this world have become. How can you just leave and do nothing about it? I wanna make this world a better place, not by singing another Micheal Jackson song, but by creating opportunities to those who really need it, not those who knew how to grab it. Not everyone is capable of doing of others can, but everyone deserve a chance, a chance which was not given cause that someone fail to cease the opportunity. Yes, some do deserve it for not making the effort, what if those who cant make any effort even they tried to?
From the looks of how this whole thing goes, this is a crappy post. In a way, I cant reconcile whats in my head and put it into proper layman language and write it like any normal person. Im weird, I have my own set of philosophy but I guess that's how things evolve around me as well. I see perfection in things that normal people saw as imperfection. I just wanna make things beautiful again, spread the hope.
Thursday, April 12, 2012
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Thursday, March 17, 2011
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
In my local context, we grew up eat roti ba kua, and as we grew, we fell in love with meccas, and then subway came into our lives with its exclusive healthy sandwiches, thats a breaky not everyone can afford. I still remember there is a time, I would watch dramas until 4am in the morning just to drive to meccas and get my breaky, those were the times... and because of this, I've forgotten how wonderful it is to actually had a hot roti ba kua at that time with a cup of kopi peng...we have walk so long in our asadi shoes that we forgot that it ever existed when we had our adidas shoes on...
If there is a choice, why do we choose something that is exclusive? why do we want something that makes us feel like we are somebody? why do we choose to be exclusive? why are we groomed from the very young day we were born, we are meant to be somebody? why do teachers taught us to follow someone else footsteps and be a better "them"? why cant we just be ourselves? or should I say who is ourselves? Do we really know who we are? IF we do, why are we trying so hard to be a better bill gates? to be a better warren buffet? to be a better steve jobs? or even to be a better angelina jolie? a better lady gaga? a better obama? a better dalai lama...? can't we see all the resources that we had in this world wants us to be someone or something else beside who we are?