The Awakening

Its 6 in the morning here and I still can't sleep. Maybe I had too damn much on my head, I mean I know things are going to change pretty soon and life are just gonna be better, but Im not sure whether that's my part of the story. Looking ahead of how things might actually work out, I knew I could do so much more back where I came from and I could really make some serious damage, that's of course if I could had assembly my whole team and work it out, but I had this really awkward thingy about me where Im not good at leading, seriously, I sucked at it. I know that I had to do something about my leadership skill as I don't think my so called "vision" will work out if I don't fix this. I had a soft part where Im afraid that i might say something that hurt someone or even offended someone, I mean Im an open minded person, in fact, Im too "open" that most of the time people might actually think Im a barbarian, ha! not really, but something are just unexplanable. I believe that the people I chose will make this vision come true cause I don't play dice and I don't being in coincidence, people I chose will be the best, and the best they are. I always think that ideas are a great thing, and ideas are bulletproof. It cannot be shot, it cannot be touch but it could kill and it could heal.

Back to the futur3 II

hmmmp....i guess this was the last year in my diploma 13 March 2007, if im not mistaken... we went to the butterfly farm, can u actually believed that tats da 1st time i actually went there? haha...well, maybe i did went there when im still a lil kid but all i remember is tis is da 1st time im there...cost us bout 15 buks or 10 buks, cant really remember, to c those small flying creatures... well, i went there wif a few frens also...

from left: joan, mk's bro, mk, angel, me, cw

that's bout every1 who went there...except tat weird looking aunty behind us...well we did pretty much nth i guess, besides taking pictures of butterflies, insects... bla bla bla...well u decide..here r all da pics...

some kind of butterfly

another butterfly

a long neck turtle

a chameleon

some insects mating

radioactive scorpions?! no la... its glow-in-the-dark scorpions...serious...

The 3 muskeechics... Oh...no...they r definately not on the exhibits...

well, i had loads more pics but i juz cant put it all in can i? but its been really great...i mean i missed my frens... i miss every1 in da pics, especially da 1 in purple, haha...tats da whole point rite...i wrote tis 2 remindmyself of her, that tis is the time i cherish da most, no matter wat the future hold...n i dun wan it to be forgotten...

anyway, it was a tiring day tat day...i cant remember where we go after tat but im sure we did go sumwhere... but i guess, tats a story for some other time den...muahahaha...

n3w Lif3, New gam3s...

For starters, I wrote tis cos i wanna start wif my assesments... so i had 2 do a lil's warm up before i start so here i am, writing a blog bout my new "life", where everything is "played" differently... in fact, im losing in tis game...im so far behind...

1st of all lets talk bout all those really gr8 dudes i met in my life before i actually left my country for the better gud (maybe not)...

*ahem felt like a nerd but here it goes from top left: Kim, Keat, Im, Chu (shes da short 1), Mike, Yip, Angel (my wifey), Chun (me), Joyce, Ricky, Hsiang, Teik

well, these r not all of them but hey, these r da 1s tat were there in the airport...so i had to give them some credits for being such a gr8 fren rite? well except for Joyce cus she wasnt there for me...*sob* *sob*, we juz met there at da airport. anyway, they were really really really really gr8 dudes, most of them r still single...still...i guess...

so much had happened den, honestly, im in a really really great country, but i juz cant reap anything out of it. i mean, i cant build networks, cuz like i had a whole claz where more den 50% are married, so cant get to noe each other tat close enuff... i noe NONE, yes NONE of the native citizens... i cant speak da native language like they do... all im doing at da moment is venturing thru my facebook all day long. pathetically, i think tats a freaking waste of my time. im better off at my country den here...seriously...

talking bout networks, i cant say i din get any but most of them i contacted thru email which make it really hard 2 make an appointment for a drink or something cuz im not quiet a PR person honestly, n i need ppl 2 make da 1st move, (sorry for making an ass of myself) but i guess if u wanna noe how things work around, u had get ppl out there for a drink, get to noe them more, bla bla bla...if u noe wat i mean, to make tis straight, i got contacts wif a chinese business man here named zhen wang (thx to eddy kwang), owner of aikido shudokan Shihan Joe (thx to Mr GL Tan), group marketing and recruitment director in AUS ED, James Kon (thx to my cousin, Bryan), CEO of variegate Jack Wong (also various companies in KL, ex CEO of SriWani, known him since I was a kid but tat close till i had my own SME, thx to my thich faced personalities, lmao), CEO/director of dunno wat the name of da company name is, Tong and his wife (Thx to SKYHOME, haha), enuff wif the big shots, i still had loads of ppl helping like my wifey, my parents, my friends such as Bee Im. Well, Besides tat, i still had loads n loads of support from every1 helping and also those gr8 dudes i told u earlier on, they r still gr8 dudes even though they din help out in my journey for success...

with all these ppl behind my back, im still feeling low...god damnit...AARRGGHHH!!!

Anyway, had a great day, happy CNY, happy wateva day, week, year...

Back to da futur3 I

seriously, im way 2 bz to blog but i had 2 write tis down b4 i actually lost my memory. heres da thing, i had no idea how many chapters there will be and which come 1st... im juz gonna dump everything in n hopefully...understood wat i juz wrote...haha...

ahh...yes...lets talk bout birthdays, still remember tat week n nite err...2 years ago...?
its my wifey's bday...

my wifey back then...*guessing*?

okies den, den there i was busying wif my preparation while she's busying doing something else, or not...neway, den i went to a few shops, hardware shops, bought some ropes for tying and rolling, wires for spanking n making knots, n other accessories for the excess excitement... *grin* (hey u, yes u, im not doing wat u think im doing)...im doing this...

ya, i noe its not huge but BIG enuff for it 2 FIT in my goddamn car...

n after the tying, knotting, papering, etc...


here it is...my not so masterpiece of a masterpiece..

hey, i was juz a boy back den, had no idea wtf all tis is all bout, if u ask me... i rather pay some1 2 do it for me da next time im thinking of doing something like tis...*wink*...duh, so pray tat i had a multi-billion company...or pray hard tat my current company had a miracle in tis current mayhen n chaos. well, during da nite... tis is wat happened...

i noe its not spectacular, but hey...it look so much better after photoshop-ing...muahaha...or in a real time video...

da rest... TO BE CONTINUE....

happy thoughts..

ok...since im soooo in da mood today for blogging today, so wat da heck... lets flashback on wat i had for da past few few few months...errmmm...let me c...oh...i forgot...i was so goddamn bz wif my company attending training, meetings wif my consultant, writing policies, designing websites, gettings things done overall, bla bla bla.... but hey u noe wat, i dun even owned a life back den... i was so attached tat i cant even sleep if my job isn't done... but i guess it all changed after tat last board meeting as i remember... honestly, im glad it happened, or else im still stucked in tat shithole... i even planned hows da company is going 2 go by next yr for god sake, n YES im fucking damn glad it happened, now im as fuckin free as a fuckin bird... i only do wat i was asked 2 help and tats it...no other fucking commitment...

well... lets not get 2 harsh on tat topic bout the past... well, not all past r as bad as tat 1... there also some gr8 moments which r not written here as i tried not 2 get attached back 2 it AGAIN... remember HOOK? tat movie by robbin williams? "all you need to fly is some fairy dust n all the happy thoughts you can think off" or something like tat...can't really remember...n hell yeah...i had a some really gr8 ones... n some its quiet recent...muahahaha....BEHOLD>>>

at moi degree convo wif weird lookin harry potter outfit

is tat a bat? is tat a statue? no, its me u dumpshit

oh...so sweet.. (shhh...its not supposed to be shown here)

of course there r still other happy thoughts like....oh yes...food, clothes, babes, liquor, jacuzzi, strip poker, nude beach, etc etc etc... n according chun (2008), it inappropriate to put so many pictures in a single blog as it is juz inappropriate. well den... next stop we'll had some happy thoughts on food... maybe clothes....no no...how bout babes.... how..... *fading*

goodbye??

for the past few months, i've gave up my hard work. there are of course a number of possible reasons why it happened. i guess i pretty much a dumb move but i guess its worthit... every bit of it, but i admit it is really a darn mistake but somehow i think i've grown from all this s**t. u noe wat? i somehow wanna sell off all my freakin shares for all i care, tired of doing tis, wishing i could juz leave but im still hoping, i gave tis brand a fresh breathe, a start, a vision but now, it seems like crap 2 me... its worthless... ill be missing it... but i guess there'll be a time when i would juz sell off n get my ass off...

Lately....

No idea why im writing this today. i mean its been so long since i ever wanted to blog again. i had so much 2 do and u know what? i dun feel like doing it rite now... maybe cus i had the wrong person in the wrong place. im talking bout my biz actually... things went so freaking akward lately, things are done correctly, i started 2 hate myself for it...i doing things 2 god damn slow...and other thing is...the rest is pretty slow as well...which i think its a total bullsh*t when some1 told me they dun haf time...
ppl juz dun prioritise things anymore...they do wat they wan when they wan...n in the end things were forgotten and things end up really messy... messy as in my "biz spot" is freaking dirty...things are dirty, its not clean, it felt like somebody's home rather den some organisation... n u noe wat? i cant say a thing, noe y? cuz there nth i could say... biz is slopping down n i aint see nth going on here... i felt so insucure but i definately dun mind tat... cuz i noe i had plan B...but honestly, i nvr wanted 2 c tis crashed... i juz dun wanna waste my time doing things which r a waste of time...
i dunno wat 2 say anymore cuz i juz dun noe wat else is there 2 be said... there r so many unknown n da known r not even done yet... i hope i wont fail though... cuz honestly i wanted 2 c it grow...
one last word....lately, it had been a awfully pain in the ass, full throttled pumping action, miserably fucked up kinda life... I HATE IT... n i cant change it cuz i aint haf enuff resources...n those i haf...r either fucked up or a piece of crap...