Thursday, June 3, 2010

again? why?

one of my friend posted some new pictures of my "wifey" on the day that they went hiking together, I noticed that there is "someone" missing from the picture and soon enough I knew the answer, then I ask my "wifey" about it. She said no, that "someone" didnt had pictures taken with them, but I already knew that that "someone" indeed had a few pictures taken with them, but she deny it. Fair enough, so i ask her whether she is sure, it took her quite some time to reply though, maybe chatting with someone else? then when the reply came, she said there is a few pictures but that "someone" would want it to be posted cause his girlfriend might be unhappy and stuff. Then, I ask again, did you just happened to remember that or is there any other reason you wanted to hide from me? she said she just remember that, akwardly enough... she told me that she got that memory card from that "someone" last week and hand it over to a friend today, and she remembered to tell her that that "someone" wouldn't want his picture to be posted due to the reasons mentioned above, is it really just a coincident that my "wifey" just happened to forget it and remember about it when i reconfirm with her? It's really hard to believe since after a week she could remember to tell her friend the same info which I ask on the same day and she forget all about it until I reconfirm with her.
Putting that aside, I ask my "wifey" since you know that this "someone" cheats on his own girlfriend and not telling the truth, will you do the same? she said NO, she will never be anything like him, in my oppinion, you just did. You screwed up your lies pretty badly... and it hurts me so much to not understand why my heart still beats for you so much. I guess the price I need to pay is this, even though I alone can withstand hell alone, but I fall for a girl like her, I pitied myself, and I really don't know what to do... All I can do now is pray, pray that everything that I ever thought off is wrong, pray that everything you told me isn't just trying to hit around the bushes and if I stop asking, you get away with it... Why? why can't you just take off your shield when you are talking to me? You know all I seek is truth, no matter how it hurts, I still want the truth, at least I can be decisive on my decisions... I indeed chose to be blind most of the time.

2 comments:

KwoONZz said...

hei.. life's tough ^^

Chun said...

lol... life's tough but tats y there a category called "love ones". there's a reason for it to exisit you noe