Je T'Aimais, Je T'Aime, Je T'Aimerai

Tonight is a very special night for me, why? because each and every year on this very special night, it proves that our relationship had gone through more than alot and yet we are still loving each other. This year, we'll be spending it alone, there is so much I want to tell you but I promise Ill keep it short.

Dear Wifey,

I hope you like the anniversary gift I gave you, I guess I finally gave you a bigger diamonds than anyone ever did. You see, if Im still back home, I might not even gave you this as our anniversary gift because it is just too expensive. But of course there's no perfect world in this planet; but if you think that you want life to be different, alternatives must be found.

The time I've been here had been a very very tough one, you might think its an easy task but planning seems to go more than planning how to run a SMB. The worst part is, when there are obstacles, I had no one to go to, honestly, Im feeling pretty lonely over here, I even had a hard time motivating myself most of the time, but I promise you and everyone I love that Ill persevere, that I believe that great works are performed not by strength, but perseverance. There is so much I want to tell you, but I know Ill be writing a 10,000 words essay and you might probably fell asleep reading how I been through all the hard times Im having.

Anyway, It had been 5 months since I last saw you in person, hold your hands and taste your lips. It was not easy for me and I bet its even harder for you, but my love for you is insatiable. This is our 3rd year together and things have changed from year to year, big ones, but still my heart always belongs to you, and only you. I love you wifey, more than words can say. Promise me that you'll wear the necklace wherever you go, okay?

Loving you always,

Your Hubby

Since I don't have an anniversary card for you, here is a weird looking picture/card whatever you want to call it.

sorry, I really didn't know it's that ugly...WTF

P/S: If you don't understand/forgot what does the words I wrote in your present, here's the translation.

Je T'Aimais, Je T'Aime, Je T'Aimerai = I have love you, I love you, I will always love you.

On s'attache = Im totally attached to you/holding you close and tight, never going to let go.

~this blog was written right after I've woke up, when my brain was sleep half sleeping, there is still alot of missing pieces and with the time limit I have, I guess this is the best I could write at the moment, will had more to tell you tonight, love you lots~

Fortune 500

Information might be delayed for more than a week but have been busy lately as there is LOTS of learning taking place on technical issues for project hoffnungs (where is everybody?), working in malaymas for extra shifts and my new semesters just started, felt like information overload. Well, no matter what, it is really a long journey and a very lonely one, this year's fortune 500 list is out and some really had make a remarkable change or drop especially in the recent recession. here goes the top 10.

10: Valero Energy (jumped from the 16th last year)
9 : Hewlett-Packard (jumped from the 14th last year)
8 : AT&T (jumped from the 10th last year)
7 : Ford Motor (remained 7th)
6 : General Motors (dropped from 4th last year)
5 : General Electric (dropped from 6th last year)
4 : Conocophillips (dropped from 5th last year)
3 : Chevron (remained 3rd)
2 : Wal-Mart Stores (dropped from the 1st last year)
1 : Exxon Mobil (jumped from 2nd last year)

For my hommies who don't really know what exxon is but do know what mobil is, it is actually the same as esso mobil which was known as exxon mobil in the states, basically they have changed the name but people do recognise it as esso mobil in some countries. so this is how it looks before and after:

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Their revenues for 2008 was 442,851 million which is also a change fo 18.8% from the previous year. Holy... Im writing a blog which looks exactly like those USM students, blogging about their assignments and stuff, lol. Well, Im a bit different as Im writting because I wanted to keep a record of fortune 10 in my blog. Forget about the logo part as it was only for publicity purposes. Back to my life, watched Wolverine the other day at Hoyts just beside the place Im currently staying, was a nice movie but I think it's abit different from Marvel as Wolverine doesn't have claws when he was a kid, he had it after the experiment, or do I get it wrong? If there is weapon X, where is the rest of the team? I thought Omega red, deadpool are in the team along with sabertooth and lady deathclaw. Maybe Im too old for comics anymore, hmmm...

Raging against knowledge while racing against time

Been busy this few days, but still I want to write something to remind myself of soemthing, lol. I was working on Monday night and I had to catch a tram to go back but when I look at the timetable, I had to wait for 20 mins, wtf. So I decided I did something extraordinary, I decide to WALK back, yes WALK. Thank god its not hot over here; while on the way back to my place, there is only 1 tram that drove pass me, and I was home after that. When I reach home, I calculate the time I used to walk back home, believe it or not, it took my speedy legs 55 mins. Well, Lets recap - if i was to wait for the tram, it will take me 20 mins to wait for the tram, approxiamately 22 mins to reach the tram stop near my place and 8 mins walk to my place, which is a total of approximately 50 mins to reach my place. I used 55 mins to walk back home, and I was thinking, wtf... why would someone spend $3.70 for a tram whereby you can reach the same destination with only a delay of only approximately 5 mins by walking? I don't mind those ladies who can't walk or even think of walking that long, but for guys...come on, it ain't that hard right, furthermore, the journey back is soooo much more fun compare than sitting inside a tram.

Well, was busying with my website 3 days ago, started "doing" it but was trying to understand the freaking user's guide which I had no idea what is what and had to do and study on the same time which was actually kind of difficult. Been spending quite alot of money on this site also, I really do hope it would work out but I've been doing it all alone and it was really really quite hard for a non-IT based dumbass like me to even sometimes understand what it meant with the FAQs and Forums' answer. I really do need 3 main people in my team:

1) An IT guy/gal who knows and understand php, xhtml, html, css, etc.

2) A Graphics guy/gal who is creative, innovative and always wanted something new to design a.k.a graphic designer; and

3) A sales a.k.a PR a.k.a negotiator a.k.a AnP guy/gal who is proavtive and aggresive

The most important part is, they need to be committed and to be extremely loyal to understand that if this project goes well, Im certain there will be profits tumbling down and by that time, we'll had no time to even pick it up, so consider it as a commission based job with no monthly salary. Well, not everyone shared the same goal and dream but those who do, fell free to contact me. This is why I call this project "HOPE"... hoping for a better future, a better life and a better world for everyone to live it.

Anyway, Im not joking, anyone who really want to sit on the same boat and have this weird experienced journey, you are most welcome. Drop your detail and email in the comment box, even though I know not much of this kind of people, lol. But hey, HOPE... never been a lucky person, but maybe just maybe.... i could be just that 1 in a million.

Nothing else I can say

Went out to the south east suburbs with my friend, had no idea where it is and where I am, but its kind of nice since there's loads of asian over there and I felt like Im back home again, it felt like Ipoh and Taiping, I mean the surroundings, just that the weather is freaking cold. Went to dinner at one of my friend's friend's nyonya restaurant, food there was kinda nice. Oh, I remembered, that placed was called Glen, yea, that's what it's called, after dinenr we went for a movie, titled "The Boy in the Striped Pajamas". The tickets over here are damn fucking cheap, made from only paper, lol. No offence but since its the first time for the last 4 months I've been to the movies, Im premitted to be a little judgemental right?

Look at the quality, look at how its teared, pretty cheap if you ask me.

Anyway, it was a nice story. Just as how I felt right now after I get to know of a certain "news". Was kind of disappointing though, but there's nothing else I can say, I hope there will be some sort of "miracle" that happen. I pray that the miracle will happen. I wish that miracle will happen, I just want to get through this. Let's just get back to the story, the movie was set in World War 2, a young boy named Bruno lives a wealthy lifestyle in Pre-war Germany along with his mother, elder sister, and army Commandant father. The family re-locate to the countryside where his father is assigned to commandeer a prison camp. A few days later, Bruno befriends another youth, strangely dressed in striped pajamas, named Shmuel who lives behind an electrified fence. Bruno will soon find out that he is not permitted to befriend his new friend as he is a Jew, and that the neighboring yard is actually a prison camp for Jews awaiting extermination. Racism was soooo obvious in this movie, i still remember what Bruno's tutor told him, "Jews are evil, monsters, if you can find a good Jew, you are the greatest explorer ever." and I guess Bruno is the greatest explorer ever. A very touching movie, both Bruno and Shmuel died at the end. Heres a few pictures of the movie...

The movie wallpaper

Bruno

Shmuel (That's the striped pajamas)

~ The End ~

*Praying hard for the unhopable hope and miracle*