21st Feb 2009

its midnight over here and somehow for the first time, I felt that things are evolving so quickly that I felt I was so far behind. All these things about the future, life, money, politics, sex, girls, love, economy, globalisation and so on... are driving me to a stage where rationality took place, where I know Im mature enough to handle it. But, not tonight, it's pretty gloomy in here, I suddenly felt people say things with such high risk that it might not be what they want to say. I weeped tonight, somehow thought I could take it like a man, but I couldn't, I fail, it doesn't quite matter what caused this as I knew this would happened someday, just didn't thought it would be today, tonight... its a gloomy dark night and Im all alone with kimba and 6 packs of Heineken... No worries, Ill be in stage 5 tomorrow... and I knew Im stronger than this... I really am

I think im in luv wif NANCEy....

Note: Anyone who knew me please be prepare when your reading this, it might offended some parties as the topic is relaively quite sensitive but please, do read on if you have started reading. It'll pay off, trust me

When I was first here, I knew this really pretty attractive girl, somone who I think are hotter and sexier than Jessica Alba...lol.... but looks don't really matter to me much though. We knew each other for over a month now and today, I suddenly felt shes so damn special, so unique, I mean I always wanted someone who could be beside me and help me with all the problems in decision making, and today I knew shes the one, I could do so much with the skills I acquire but with her I know Ill be something bigger, I felt like i could conquer the world. For the first time in my life, I felt someone with such gentle hands, so wished I could kiss her lips. Its like love in those fairy tales, I wished we could make love all day and had us a baby... I had only 2 months left to know her more, I don't want to lose her, and yes, I love her more and more, and i missed her right now at this moment Im writing this.

She came from a very typical family, her father owns a really big business organisation called "The Corporate" or something and her mum usually works with her dad. She had a few brothers and sister though, most of all she's a eurasian or something (guess that's what makes her hot?), her family name was Fi and i call her Nancey. I don't think she will ever read this but I just want her to know that I really want to know you more and somehow I really do think that Im starting to fall in love with you, I love you FINANCE....I really do... I hope you'll gave me chance for both of us, I know we'll had a great future together...

The Awakening

Its 6 in the morning here and I still can't sleep. Maybe I had too damn much on my head, I mean I know things are going to change pretty soon and life are just gonna be better, but Im not sure whether that's my part of the story. Looking ahead of how things might actually work out, I knew I could do so much more back where I came from and I could really make some serious damage, that's of course if I could had assembly my whole team and work it out, but I had this really awkward thingy about me where Im not good at leading, seriously, I sucked at it. I know that I had to do something about my leadership skill as I don't think my so called "vision" will work out if I don't fix this. I had a soft part where Im afraid that i might say something that hurt someone or even offended someone, I mean Im an open minded person, in fact, Im too "open" that most of the time people might actually think Im a barbarian, ha! not really, but something are just unexplanable. I believe that the people I chose will make this vision come true cause I don't play dice and I don't being in coincidence, people I chose will be the best, and the best they are. I always think that ideas are a great thing, and ideas are bulletproof. It cannot be shot, it cannot be touch but it could kill and it could heal.

Back to the futur3 II

hmmmp....i guess this was the last year in my diploma 13 March 2007, if im not mistaken... we went to the butterfly farm, can u actually believed that tats da 1st time i actually went there? haha...well, maybe i did went there when im still a lil kid but all i remember is tis is da 1st time im there...cost us bout 15 buks or 10 buks, cant really remember, to c those small flying creatures... well, i went there wif a few frens also...

from left: joan, mk's bro, mk, angel, me, cw

that's bout every1 who went there...except tat weird looking aunty behind us...well we did pretty much nth i guess, besides taking pictures of butterflies, insects... bla bla bla...well u decide..here r all da pics...

some kind of butterfly

another butterfly

a long neck turtle

a chameleon

some insects mating

radioactive scorpions?! no la... its glow-in-the-dark scorpions...serious...

The 3 muskeechics... Oh...no...they r definately not on the exhibits...

well, i had loads more pics but i juz cant put it all in can i? but its been really great...i mean i missed my frens... i miss every1 in da pics, especially da 1 in purple, haha...tats da whole point rite...i wrote tis 2 remindmyself of her, that tis is the time i cherish da most, no matter wat the future hold...n i dun wan it to be forgotten...

anyway, it was a tiring day tat day...i cant remember where we go after tat but im sure we did go sumwhere... but i guess, tats a story for some other time den...muahahaha...

n3w Lif3, New gam3s...

For starters, I wrote tis cos i wanna start wif my assesments... so i had 2 do a lil's warm up before i start so here i am, writing a blog bout my new "life", where everything is "played" differently... in fact, im losing in tis game...im so far behind...

1st of all lets talk bout all those really gr8 dudes i met in my life before i actually left my country for the better gud (maybe not)...

*ahem felt like a nerd but here it goes from top left: Kim, Keat, Im, Chu (shes da short 1), Mike, Yip, Angel (my wifey), Chun (me), Joyce, Ricky, Hsiang, Teik

well, these r not all of them but hey, these r da 1s tat were there in the airport...so i had to give them some credits for being such a gr8 fren rite? well except for Joyce cus she wasnt there for me...*sob* *sob*, we juz met there at da airport. anyway, they were really really really really gr8 dudes, most of them r still single...still...i guess...

so much had happened den, honestly, im in a really really great country, but i juz cant reap anything out of it. i mean, i cant build networks, cuz like i had a whole claz where more den 50% are married, so cant get to noe each other tat close enuff... i noe NONE, yes NONE of the native citizens... i cant speak da native language like they do... all im doing at da moment is venturing thru my facebook all day long. pathetically, i think tats a freaking waste of my time. im better off at my country den here...seriously...

talking bout networks, i cant say i din get any but most of them i contacted thru email which make it really hard 2 make an appointment for a drink or something cuz im not quiet a PR person honestly, n i need ppl 2 make da 1st move, (sorry for making an ass of myself) but i guess if u wanna noe how things work around, u had get ppl out there for a drink, get to noe them more, bla bla bla...if u noe wat i mean, to make tis straight, i got contacts wif a chinese business man here named zhen wang (thx to eddy kwang), owner of aikido shudokan Shihan Joe (thx to Mr GL Tan), group marketing and recruitment director in AUS ED, James Kon (thx to my cousin, Bryan), CEO of variegate Jack Wong (also various companies in KL, ex CEO of SriWani, known him since I was a kid but tat close till i had my own SME, thx to my thich faced personalities, lmao), CEO/director of dunno wat the name of da company name is, Tong and his wife (Thx to SKYHOME, haha), enuff wif the big shots, i still had loads of ppl helping like my wifey, my parents, my friends such as Bee Im. Well, Besides tat, i still had loads n loads of support from every1 helping and also those gr8 dudes i told u earlier on, they r still gr8 dudes even though they din help out in my journey for success...

with all these ppl behind my back, im still feeling low...god damnit...AARRGGHHH!!!

Anyway, had a great day, happy CNY, happy wateva day, week, year...