its da fourth day of cny, its been really gr8 though but when things started to settled in... i felt theres juz something missing..something...oh ya...yes...tats it...COMMITMENT...!!! i dunno but out of a sudden i felt like nobodies there...nobodies there to commit...its ridiculuos really... i mean if a single client doesnt matter den wats da point of having ure own business...serious...think bout it twice? if pleasure does come 1st, y should u ever commit in such serious commitment? god damnit...i starting 2 feel i made da wrong choice...maybe i need a leader, some1 who could lead me 2 lead da rest of them...i need things which could give motivation n commitment 2 my team n my partners. im afraid, afraid tat 1 day, all these...could be juz another dream...incomplete...n all tats left was me... in a place which kinda felt like the african desert...which i planned 2 change it 2 a oasis.... i really do need a mesiah... if preserverance is the key 2 success i guess, im still living in the 70s... i mean how much longer do u wanna take 2 be successful? wheres tat dream? wheres tat ego? wheres tat commiment 2 be diff? wheres tat ...tat everything...?
y look at wat u'll get in 5 yrs time if u could actually get it in a yr? y is such time needed 2 be wasted? bullsh*t... face it... i sometimes sucked, eventhough i noe i did my best, i still think its not the best...cuz i hate it...i dislike da fact tat it actually sucked... i really do wished i had a better n greater team... i miss being tat strong person i used 2 be, im getting weaker n its all my fault... i made a mistake, which i'll nvr 4give.... i miscalculated.... i swear 2 god ill fix it....no matter wat, but pls....pls pls pls pls....give me a team tat could work wif me... make tis whole thing worked...all i ask is a lil more commitment instead of actually committing in da wrong place at da wrong time...no1 is perfect ill give u tat... so am i...
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