meccas, subway or roti ba kua?

we live in a world of choices, and I've witness the evolution of mankind, the evolution of a person's personality to a person ego controlling everything that came into their path. I myself had a strong ego i presumed, always wants everything to be perfect, but i guess things aint always the way you wanted...

In my local context, we grew up eat roti ba kua, and as we grew, we fell in love with meccas, and then subway came into our lives with its exclusive healthy sandwiches, thats a breaky not everyone can afford. I still remember there is a time, I would watch dramas until 4am in the morning just to drive to meccas and get my breaky, those were the times... and because of this, I've forgotten how wonderful it is to actually had a hot roti ba kua at that time with a cup of kopi peng...we have walk so long in our asadi shoes that we forgot that it ever existed when we had our adidas shoes on...

If there is a choice, why do we choose something that is exclusive? why do we want something that makes us feel like we are somebody? why do we choose to be exclusive? why are we groomed from the very young day we were born, we are meant to be somebody? why do teachers taught us to follow someone else footsteps and be a better "them"? why cant we just be ourselves? or should I say who is ourselves? Do we really know who we are? IF we do, why are we trying so hard to be a better bill gates? to be a better warren buffet? to be a better steve jobs? or even to be a better angelina jolie? a better lady gaga? a better obama? a better dalai lama...? can't we see all the resources that we had in this world wants us to be someone or something else beside who we are?

complicated?

had a whole day recapping how this world reacts on materialism, found out, temptation is just too hard to resist. People don't know what they are asked for, and had no idea what hitting them, people make empty promises, hoping 1 day they would do as they have promised. Honestly, I'm afraid, afraid of looking someone straight in the eye and say, "hey, you are the next closest thing to real"... I'm warned that even as life goes on, people who said that materials doesn't evolve around their life are usually full of crap. They said it because they haven't been struck by it, yet...

I'm afraid that 1 day, I once again felt into the same situation, where I am judge for what I am instead of who I am, but I dunno why, with all the insecurity and fear surround me, I chose to believe, believe in something I felt through time, it will change, why am I so sure that I wont be just in the same scenario? Simple, because I led a different perspective of this world, I see this world as what it is, naive? No... Delusional? I would say its a matter of personal contact and the understanding of the world...

I count myself lucky to be able to stand again in this dreadful world, full of sin, full of happy thoughts, full of chaos... I saw her and I believed once again, and yes I'm talking about you my beloved wifey Angie, I look into your eyes and I believed everything you said, I'm told that its too early to decide, but to be honest, you really had taken my heart away, but I'm afraid of one thing, that 1 day, you might find that I ain't the one, because I ain't perfect enough for you. To me, you are more than perfect, I fell for you because you are more than it meets the eye kinda person, but me? I'm nobody, trying hard to be somebody, hoping someday, held your hand in marriage, crazy? No, its because you made me see hope once again... I wished one day in the future, you will still see my perfection through all the imperfection that I have. I love you Angie, I love you more than yesterday and less than tomorrow as it seems, I'm just hoping that you would too...

life

life is unpredictable indeed. Been through alot and still havent figure out why people still fight for their own benefits. selfishness

好幸福哦！

跟你在一起这一星期超开心，没想到我这傻瓜还有人要。。。

刚才在喝酒时，翔点了首歌-I Believe，

看到那MV，原来是野蛮女友里的情节，

一看就想到你，你那野蛮中的温柔，

你那霸道中的关心，你那粗鲁中的体贴，

真的让我一天比一天的更爱你。。。

你每次讲你笨，其实我觉得你真的很聪明，

我刚才看到你的作品时，真的觉得你很棒。。。

你每次说你很长气，其实我觉得你好关心我，

我每次还要你来提醒我顾好自己，真的觉得你超棒。。。

可能就是你的不完美，让我觉得你很完美。。。

其实我从来都没想过有人觉得我那么棒，你是第一个

其实我从来没想过有人会那么体贴，你是第一个

其实我从来没想过有人会每天想吻我，你是第一个。。。

我其实一点都不完美，

我其实一点都不聪明，

我其实一点都不棒，

很多时候，真的觉得自己很笨，很没用，好像什么都做不到，

而你就比我在这方面做得好多了。。。

总之，有你在身边，真的真的超棒，超幸福！！